The first event I remember best is my first time at Blue Water. It was a life-changing event and I am grateful for it. I forgot what was the most important thing in life, I became a bad person and did bad things, ending up in prison. I have to admit, at first I was so scared I felt nauseous. I remember the thoughts that went through my head. I kept thinking about all the movies I'd seen about prison that made things worse, and it really bothered me that I had to undergo a search. Once I was there, it had a smell that I could never forget; it was a sterile but at the same time unpleasant smell. I had to undress in front of a guard. He took my clothes and gave me a burgundy shirt and sweatpants. After your research they take you to the doctors to look at you and see if you have any problems. Then a guard will take you to the admission house, it was called Trent House. Trent gets 18 hours in jail and half an hour out. When you are in that house you have very limited privileges, also it has big thick metal doors with huge locks. When I entered the stove I was scared, but I was trying to look like I wasn't. When I came out of my room, a boy came up to me and told me to fight someone, and told me that if I didn't do it he and three other boys would jump me. The way people handle things there is extremely different from how people in society do. You have to fight for your respect, and that's all that matters. I found myself not being so afraid once you have some respect. It's not exactly like a real prison, people don't get raped or killed, but in a way it's the fact that fighting solves all problems. When I was transferred to the Georgian House I had that feeling in my stomach again, because Georgia was holding people who committed worse crimes and have been there longer. It was exactly the same thing, fight and people won't bother you. We showered ourselves and only took a small paper cup of shampoo and a small bar of soap.